To be completely honest, I was not at all excited about this upcoming football season. I'm the type of guy that takes UCLA football and basketball far too seriously. If something is wrong with my team, it can literally make my stomach hurt. I remember distinctly after our terrible loss to Notre Dame last year, I actually shed a tear. It was completely demoralizing and disheartening to see my Bruins go down in the fashion that they did.

I feared this year because I just knew that Dorrell will not live up to our loft expectations. I know I have many stomach aches to worry about on Saturdays (maybe I should have brought to Pepto with me to the game this last Saturday).

It took me me a while to figure out what I feared about this season. To not be excited at all about football is an insane and almost unthinkable thing to say. Then it dawned on me. I know exactly what I feared. This classic episode of The Twilight Zone explains it all.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=9DNbyOKd9YM

(I intended to embed the video, but I the this site won't let me for some reason. Maybe Nestor can figure it out.)

I didn't fear regression. I didn't fear the inability to live up to our lofty expectations (and maybe I shouldn't say "our" since the AD has the same expectations). I feared no change. I feared no change at all. I belive this is quite different than the former two items. Even without change, Dorrell could ostensibly find success this year. If that is to happen, I would rather not have success.

I would rather Dorrell become an "in your face" type of coach that is willing to take blame for losses and sh*tty play calling and be 8-4 as opposed to Dorrell staying who he is and being 11-1. Each win is unenjoyable with Dorrell. Doom feels like its right around the corner with each win. 11-1 with Dorrell would feel like 5-7 plus each game probably takes off 3 days from our life span just from the stress. Wins with Dorrell, in my opinion, are simply not worth it.

I went to the game this Saturday. I saw what you saw. I saw no change. I saw what I feared. I saw a win that felt like 2 losses. I saw the need to run down to Costco to purchase the economy sized Pepto. I saw all the signs that we need for the immediate removal of Karl Dorrell. That will not happen because 2007 is not the year of change; it is the year of the status quo.

I guess I just have to be patient, but here is a quote to think about:

"When you are through changing, you are through." - Bruce Barton

I'm convinced Dorrell is done changing.