I felt like throwing up today. Multiple times. I was so depressed it was ridiculous. My heart was heavy with shame and anger for several hours.

The worst part?

This wasn't the first time. Or the second. Or the third.

Fellow bruin fans, we just wasted 5 years on a man who ran our program into the ground and never changed his facial expression while doing it. Starting with Hurricane George, our program has slowly declined to the point where we are now at rock-bottom... during a season where we returned 20 STARTERS AND AN ALL-AMERICAN. This is coaching. Toledo got screwed by outside circumstances and never recovered. We then sat on our hands and watched our rivals rise to power due to our AD's inability to hire and recognize a competent head coach. It's over. We've hit a new low.

I feel that we are now a rebuilding program. Our natural advantages will give us a smaller period of waiting time before returning to prominence,  but now, as a collective community, we must wait.

It sucks. I just waited 5 years for what, 4-point upset win over USC?! I want my five years back. But it seems like I have to do it all over again.

You know what? I can do it. I bleed Blue and Gold. We all do. Our boys, no matter what their record, are OUR BOYS.

We have to do it right this time. We HAVE TO. I will wait 5 more years to have the kind of confidence in our coach that we have every single game, hell, every offseason, for Coach Howland. I don't want to rush this process. I want the right man, and I want his players and his system in here at UCLA as soon as possible. But impatience will kill us. We now get to take our time, deliberate, make the right decision. The future of UCLA football is cloudy, but let's not hurry to clear things up. After all, it seems like we've got all the time in the world.

I don't have any coaching candidate I particularly like, or anyone I feel is being impatient. I just want to know how you guys feel about what will happen now. Anyone?